Realization(s)

Welcome back.
Since I announced in my last entry to test the therapeutic effect of writing, I am back today to share some recent realization(s). When you have decided to become a Holistic Life Coach and work through the creative phase of setting-up a business, its philosophy & marketing as well meeting like-minded people who share the new journey with you, you do not anticpate to fall into deep holes easily. As a Life Coach you naturally think that "I have been through all this stuff" and therefore can't "afford" to personally suffer. It seems incongruent with what you want to create for your clients and your own ability to stand above it all. Yet, yesterday this seemed far away. I was caught in a spiral of negative thinking, anxiety and low self-confidence about my future and all the things that needed to be done in order to get ahead. After tossing and turning for hours in my bed at night, I finally felt a strong sensation and a state of peacefulness began to settle in my heart. As I was lying there, eyes half-open, listening to my heart beat and allowing my feelings to settle, I got a message. The message was not very strong, but clear: "Stop struggeling, start accepting and surrender". It suddenly hit me that only by acknowledging, embracing and accepting the Now and the Past, I would be able to move forward. This time it was different from a logical, cognitive understanding of what needed to be done. I immediatly connected the experience with information I had received 2 weeks earlier about the 4 stages of awakening and felt the message had just been reinforced for me. Life itself is a process of awakening - awakening to the fact that we all have choices in our lives and the more conscious we go through life, the more responsibility we take for it. While the world in itself is changing and our collective consciousness levels are rising right now, the 4 stages are still
reflected in the thinking, feeling and actions of people around us and within ourselves. The stages are:

Stage 1: VICTIM- Mentality (no control & responsibility; cultural programming)
Stage 2: EMPOWERED (more aware, experimentation with universal laws, still EGO-led)
Stage 3: SURRENDER (letting go to the Divine, allowing, not my will, but thy will be done)
Stage 4: AWAKENING (melting into the divine, is only granted by grace, oneself can't make it happen)

This in turn resonated with a book I just read by Gary Quinn on "Living in the Spiritual Zone" as well as a pendulum reading I received today that confirmed my life purpose as a "Spiritual Life Coach". By sharing this with you, I realize the that these partly disconnected experiences fit together, reaffirming what I have to do next to climb the ladder of increased consciousness. God and the Universe wanted me to know that if I allow letting go of my expectations, self-made pressures and past imprints, I truly have a chance to actually get there where I wanted to go in the first place. So, God I surrender, letting your light shine on me and be bathed in your divinity. In Gratitude, Vanessa

Reflection: What message is GOD & the Universe sending to you today?