Dear all,
By now you will have noticed that a recurring theme in my blogs and newsletter is the evolution of human consciousness – what it means, how it shows up in our lives and what lessons we are to learn, so we can evolve into who we truly meant to be.
My belief is that our fundamental task in this lifetime is to strip away the layers of the ego that come with false identification of the mind and play out in negative patterns throughout our life and past lives (if they have not been cleared away). These patterns are rooted in conditioned thought forms that are low in energy vibrations and that we have allowed to drive our behaviours – for example shame, guilt, fear, desire, anger, pride, grief. In order to evolve consciously and be in a higher vibrational state we have to cultivate self-awareness and choose thought forms that are positive like courage, acceptance, love, joy, peace.
Experiences or conditioned thinking that keep us trapped in the lower thought forms (and can be unconscious) have to be healed and let go of to awaken us to our true selves. Becoming aware of them is the first step, accepting them and releasing them is the next step while consciously choosing new thoughts & actions that support life.
In our lives, we will be given experiences which are most helpful for the evolution of our consciousness. A classic case was the recent story of Dr. Silviu Ionescu, the former Romanian diplomat who was officially found culpable by the Coroner Court of Singapore of committing two hit-and-run accidents in Dec 2009.
He hat hit three men in quick succession with his car after a night out where alcohol was in involved. One of the men hit by the car died (he was 30 years old and newly wed) whereas the other two were severely injured. This has been a tragic accident and one could say, it can happen, but what was intriguing is how Dr. Ionescu chose to respond by denying all responsibility and lacking in basic human decency. Fact is:
•He drank alcohol and he was driving too fast when the accident occurred
•After he hit the three men and did not stop his car to see what happened and call for an ambulance
•Instead he slowed down to scold an eye witness who tried to stop him from fleeing the scene
•He drove home and slept. The next day, he tried to persuade his female companion who he was spending the night out with, to “forget” that he had drank alcohol
•He fabricated a story and lied to the police that his car was stolen and he was not involved in the accident
•Shortly after, he left for Romania while the Singapore police started investigations
•Since then he has denied all allegations and has called the recent verdict by the State Coroner of Singapore as “bullshit”
•It is yet unclear whether Romania will waiver his diplomatic immunity, so that he can be charged in Singapore and be jailed for his crime
Isn’t it amazing how consistently Dr. Ionescu has chosen to ignore reality and deny truth? There were so many “exit points” for him to come clean and admit to his wrong doings. Instead, he held on to the illusion that he can get away without taking accountability and his life will go back to normal.
Without knowing much of Dr. Ionescu, I presume that this is not the first time that he has chosen to ignore warning signs of what is really going on in his life. I believe, the bigger the wake-up call we experience, the more resistance we have shown in learning our lessons early on.
Resistance is an inner contraction, a hardening of the shell of the ego and the more we resist, the more outer resistance we create and ultimately the universe will not be on our side and life will not be helpful. What we fight strengthens, what we resist, persist.
In this case, it had tragic consequences that ended in the loss of life. Dr. Ionescu had many choices along the way that could have resulted in a very different outcome. I feel for the victim’s families, but I also know it had to come to this for Ionescu to “wake up”. I am not sure what the wake-up is about in detail, one would presume humility, decency & responsibility by overcoming pride, shame, anger and desire might be part of it.
He is still in denial and it may take a while for the realization to kick in, yet it is inevitable. He is part of the human race and has his contributions to make in the name of human consciousness. Dismantling his ego and facing the truth in the context of this case, will be a step towards greater self-awareness and responsibility.
We have to understand that whatever we choose in our life has consequences beyond ourselves. We are all interconnected and when we ignore what we need to learn, life comes knocking at our doors the hard way. Therefore the only way to evolve is to work on ourselves – if we get better, the world is getting better.
And I am writing this as a reminder for myself. Sometimes I have this romantic notion that I am not harming anyone else by just having self-defeating thoughts – the inner critic voice (e.g. I am not good enough; I am not worthy enough etc.). Fact is, because of that voice, fear manifests and keeps me from doing things that can benefit others and allows me to truly manifest my gifts in the best possible way. It also makes me blame my partner or allows me to complain about things in my life, I am not happy with. These are all negative and low vibrational states that reduce the collective human consciousness, rather than uplifting it.
Think about it, we do not have to be a Dr. Ionescu to deny awareness and responsibility of our actions. By just thinking about ourselves (or others) in a negative way, we can impact and slow down our own conscious evolution and that of humanity as a whole.
You may want to ask yourself today:
• What predominantly occupies my mind?
• What emotions go with that?
• What am I really afraid of? What am I not willing to face?
• What possibilities am I denying myself because of that?
• What lessons am I ignoring?
• What would I need to make a shift?
Ultimately, we will all end up in the same place, as we are Truth and Light itself. The question is just how “fast” (how many lives do we need to learn our lessons…) and how much love, peace and joy did we experience and create during our life times.
As Eckhart Tolle says, “…you cannot fight the ego and win, just as you cannot fight against darkness. The light of consciousness is all that is necessary. You are the light.”
May Dr. Ionescu be blessed with this understanding and the victim’s families have the grace & compassion of forgiveness.
We are all one,
Vanessa
